How're you?
Oh, life's pretty good! Haha.
I feel like I've always gotta say that :P. If you don't say it's good, it'll make you the most annoying person ever. If you say "life is shit and I want to kill myself", other people will react with "Yeah, you should your kill yourself". Haha.
No, but in all honesty, it's great! If I don't think too hard about it. :)
If I do, well, I remember this fear in the back of my brain. And it is in the back, since I've done every therapeutic activity in existence to move it there. :) But it just sits there and saps away at me, screaming and complaining that I haven't reached the next milestone in life! No girlfriend, marriage, kids, etc. Haha.
It's as if my parents are just living in that section! Even though they're on the other side of the country, they've fucked me up so hard that they now claim this little sliver of my brain! They're forever with me, telling me to hurry the fuck up (classic!). And, like in real life, never verbalizing any bit of love they have for me! (Did I mention that I'm doing good!?)
Ah, fuck. If only I could shut that part of my brain up for a bit. :P For just...A YEAR. Or 10! Oh how the beautiful serene tranquil bliss that'd be!
So! That's what's going on in my life! It's just that last damn sliver! HAHA. :) 100% of my stress, 100% of my angst! I see friends getting married left and right, and I want to gouge my eyes out! And then, once in a while, someone pops out a baby...and I have an existential meltdown!!
But yes! You asked how I am. I'm SO. SO GOOD! How're you!? ARE YOU ALSO GOOD??