A month
What a fun month it's been.
I appreciate that I've found someone that's smart, pretty, funny, and kind. That's as broken and dysfunctional as me, but who has handled her issues with far more grace. I respect her a lot - and plan on enjoying things going into month two.
A summary of dates and events so far:
First date:
- Like usual, I can't remember much, but I do remember thinking she looked amazing in the black dress she wore. The date was at Love Street - a bar I have fond memories of.
- We talked about physical therapy, her client, McDonald's, and she showed me pictures of her dog. We touched on her two "red flags" (being a vegan and not drinking) and how she started therapy when she was very young (...13, I think)?
- I remember us realizing how late it was at Tapster, and her mentioning that she usually didn't lose track of time like this. I remember walking her back to her apartment, saying something dumb about eating octopus, hugging her goodbye, and immediately realized that I had wanted the night to last much longer.
After our date, we exchanged texts and talked about pretty much everything: our mutual love of animated comedies and Studio Ghibli films, dogs, her helping her brother move, and her visiting home. I was very scared that she'd think I was a bad texter. She probably does - but...it doesn't seem to bother her.
Second date:
- Fun - so much fun. Bungalow by Middlebrow, Easy Does It after. Any hesitation I had the first date (didn't have many - and they were mostly because I hadn't gotten to know her) were gone by the end of our second date. Our walk through the park was funny; our discussion of previous partners at the bar was interesting; and I remember being unable to sleep after the date. Again, I remember wishing I could spend more time with her.
Third date:
- Short, sweet - just like her dog that she brought on the date. Patio at Ravens. We both had a lot of fun. Talked about types of partners we like and look for. I remember her explaining tarot and the moon and astrology. She enjoys all this - and romantasy novels; clearly, there's something she loves about really mystical, magical content. Though I'm a bit more ...grounded in my beliefs, I appreciate the energy she brings to it. She is as entertaining as ever to me.
Fourth date:
- Interesting. I felt a bit bad after, but wasn't sure if I should have. She was a bit tired. I was too. We were both a bit less engaged than usual. I don't necessarily think it points to incompatibility or anything like that - more that, once in a while, relationships can be real and imperfect. That this person who I am obsessed with can be quiet, calm, tired. And that's ok. It makes it all feel more human. I think I remain sad, of course, but will get over it.
- We had a very interesting conversation at dinner about how she feels about my texting cadence (slow, long) - and how we both overthink, but in different ways. I think this will be the crux of our relationship.